Merry Christmas

lovelyyy season

Happy Birthday Jesus! ♥
(and happy birthday to you, Asher)

God is the greatest love of all.
I love You.

My Dearest Daughter, I see your loneliness and fear. I know your hurt and your heartaches. In a special bottle I am storing each and every one of your tears. I see you searching for love, for happiness, for fulfillment. As much as I hate to see your pain, as much as it grieves me to see you struggle, all this must be, in order for you to totally and completely come to the end of your own understanding: only then can you fully hear my voice.

Listen very carefully. Amidst the noise of the world, I’m calling. My voice is in the midst of your worst fears tenderly beseeching you to trust me, in the pain of your loneliness. If you hold real still, you can feel my arms encircling you and hear my soothing words of comfort. Yes, that still, small voice within you is mine. Yes, that gentle touch is me. Give me your pain- yes, all of it, and I will give you my peace. Give me your sorrow and I will give you joy unspeakable. I cherish you, Daughter. I shed my blood so that you could be clean. I want you for my companion, my bride, to love and cherish now and throughout eternity and I plan to dress you in the most beautiful of white garments. As you live out the joy and experience the wonder of being my bride, I will be your gentle tutor conforming you to my image.
I must begin by teaching you how to serve and live in submission to me. Let me convince you of your great value so that you may be able to fully share the love I have given you with the one you someday choose to bring to me as your earthly husband. Then, and only then, will you be the kind of wife I would choose for him. Give yourself completely to me. I want you to deny me nothing. I will not hurt you. I will not disappoint you. You can trust me- completely. I keep my promises. Do not be overly critical of yourself or become depressed because you are not perfect in your own eyes. It saddens me greatly to hear you criticize and devalue the one I love so much. Daughter, in me, you are complete and lacking in nothing. What right do you have to criticize the one I treasure? On what grounds do you find fault with what I have so fearfully and wonderfully made? Why do you call what I deem beautiful- ugly? Why do you believe that that one I love enough to die for is not good enough? Daughter, I want you to know who you are in me. I mean who you really are in me- completely loved and totally forgiven. I want you to trust me one step, one day, one second at a time. Dwell in My power and My love and be all that you are in me, in My strength, and in My power.

Do not fear what might happen or what the future may bring because my grace is sufficient and I will take care of you. Daughter, I know that you long to give yourself to someone, to have a deep relationship with him, and to be loved thoroughly and exclusively by him. But I must say no. Not until my love is enough. Not until you can see yourself truly complete in me. I love you, my child. Until you discover that your joy and satisfaction can be found in me alone, you will not be capable of handling the problems and disappointments that are part of every relationship. You can never be truly united with another in the way your heart desires, only I can fill that emptiness, only I can supply that need, only I can love you enough. You must be united with me, exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings before you will have the strength to endure the many heart-aches and, yes, even soul-aches of even a seemingly perfect human relationship. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you my faithfulness, my gentleness, and my self-control. Then, you will need no other.

Daughter, I want you to allow me to be enough. You must keep your eyes on me, expecting the greatest and the best things from me. Keep experiencing the satisfaction of knowing that I am and that you are my child. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. Stay close by my side. Seek my face in the morning, my presence throughout the day, and my comfort at night. I am always there, Daughter. I will never leave you or forsake you. But, you must wait. Don’t be anxious. Do not get in a hurry. Don’t look around and fear or envy the things others have received from me. You must keep from looking off or away. Look up to me or you’ll miss the things I want to show you, and then, when you are ready, I’ll give you the desires I have put in your heart, the strength to endure all things, and the courage to risk your heart. You see, until you are ready and the one I have for you is ready… I am working even this minute to have you both ready at the same time… until you are both living to, which you will, however imperfectly, reflect your relationship in me.

First give me time to heal your wounds, console your heartaches, and ease your disappointments. Find me time to erase the painful memories of the past. Give me time to heal you and make you whole and complete in me. I want you to experience real “agape” love- not the selfish, false love of the world. I want you to learn love that is patient and always kind. Love that knows no envy and is never boastful or proud. Love that is never rude or self-seeking. Love that is not easily angered or keeps a record of wrong. Love that does not delight in evil but instead rejoices in truth. The love I want for you, Daughter, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres, never fails. Because this love is of the spirit and not of the flesh, its natural fruit is joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. I cannot give this love to you in or even through another except dimly, and then only in a limited capacity- for all will fail and eventually disappoint you. This perfect love, Daughter, can only be found in me.

Let my perfect love flow from you and spill over to all you touch. Be not concerned with yourself; you are my responsibility. I will change you often without you even knowing it. Take your eyes off yourself, look only to me, I lead, I change, I create, but only when you are not striving. You are mine; let me have the joy of making you into my image- only I can do this. Above all else, look to me and me only, never to yourself and never to others. Do not struggle, relax and trust my love. I know what is best and will do it in and through you if you’ll let me. Stop trying to become, and let me transform you from within. I love you Daughter. Will you let my love be enough for you?
I’m waiting… will you wait too?

-Jesus

(via alifeofloveforlife)

It’s not about gifts. That’s why it isn’t Giftsmas.
It’s not about boy/girlfriends. That’s why it isn’t Boy/girlfriendsmas.
It’s not just about family. That’s why it isn’t Familymas.
It’s not just about friends. That’s why it isn’t Friendsmas.
It’s about Christ. That’s why it’s Christmas.

(via gimpersneverquit)

The reason for the seaon, its Jesus. (:

To love You from the inside out

Here’s an extract of bestie’s post from (23 Dec). Really makes sense.

What’s a best friend? What defines one? What are the requirements for a good best friend? How long does it take? How many times a week, or how many hours does it entail?

Stupid questions that have no answers.

Best friends aren’t defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they spent together. It’s not defined by how many inside jokes they have or how many past memories they share. There’re no rules or regulations that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion.
It’s the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things, but even the sad ones and the embarrassing ones. It is the first person you would call when you’re at your worst. It is the person who saves you when you didn’t even realise you need saving. It’s the person who loves you when you least deserve it.
And most importantly, it’s the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person you are becoming.

I think its easy to get the misconception of bestfriends. I too, bear the wrong idea in my mind before.

Hey, i love you.

Christmas is coming. Like 2 days away. I’ve still got pretty much cards yet to finish but thank God christmas party is over! I hope our efforts in the deco team really paid off even though it wasnt that visible and great. Still, thank God, here to all members of deco team who had been working hard with me, God recognises our every little effort and I’m sure we did make a difference (at least to the appearance of the room LOL). Haha and I’m glad through preparations of the christmas party, we (even though from different units and such) grew closer and not just acquaintances but we are friends now Just wna thank God for all of yall.

The grand event is tomorrow!!! I’m really excited for christmas service (at the door). Even though my confirmations are really quite cui, but I knew at least I’ve tried and God wouldn’t shortchange me. For now, P.U.S.H! (Pray until something happens)

Tada, will be back for more. Now, goodbye and goodnight to all.

btw, Hillsongs is a really amazing band.

in the hall the clock chime

Let me tell you why Little Boots is awesome.

There’ll be lesser updates till school reopens. There are many preparation I’ve got to do like Christmas, and next week will be packed with outings, homeworks tooo. Sorry to disappoint my faithful readers aha. I will post pictures, promise!

Meanwhile i knw bestie’s busy as well. Lets jiayou together! Jetaime<3

and to those who want to find out who killed christmas, look here.

I can’t get enough of You.

Can’t imagine life without You

Suddenly the amount of people who viewed my blog dropped tremendously. LOL

Anyway really want to recommend this song to all believers (or if you want listen for fun also can cos its nice). Haha the female singers were amazing and it inspires me alot.

So there, Desert Song by Hillsong

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it’s way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be empited again
The seed I’ve received I will sow

the heart of christmas

Have it ever occurred to you what’s christmas without christ?

Love you.

I have a reason to sing

Here’s a short post to my readers who are still alive out there.

His love so great

that my cup overflows.

Here’s a kind-of sequence to my previous blog post. And firstly I want to clarify its not an emo post LOLOL! Rather, a thoughtful one that I wanted to share my heartfelt feelings. And still, God is my solution.

I was reading this book “Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren” and God reminded me that the world and all its things are momentary items, they will pass away. We’re just temporary residents inhabitting earth for the time being, but we shouldnt forget that we are citizens of heaven. That’s precisely why we must not grow to comfort and became attached to the world.

And there, I realised:
New computers may encounter virus attack or just grow old, they fail you.
Music may last you for a day, two weeks, but you get tired listening to them, they fail you.
Websites came tumbling down, sometimes they go out of service, they fail you.
The buses/mrts/cars broke down once in a while, they fail you.
Your pillow, blanket and bolster will wear out one day, they fail you.
Your pets, they fail to respond to your needs, they will die, they fail you.
Humans are unable to meet all of your expectations, they can’t love you enough, they disappoint, they fail you.

Promises may be broken and hearts scarred,
but God is there to heal, He never fails.

“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is temporary.” -1 Corinthians 4:16-18

God’s Truth sets you free, but are you willing to open the door for Him?

No one can feel it for you

I feel hopeless.

I don’t want to be so easily swayed by what others think, act and agree on. When God gave us emotions, He didn’t want us to be slave of it, but to enjoy these gifts, to feel what He feels for the world. But I felt as if I’m defeated and restricted. I don’t want to receive second-hand blessings, or to be affected whether negatively or postively by what people think, I want to experience God’s love myself, to personally get a touch of what God wants, desires for me. I want it so much. But why am I so blinded by things of the world, overly self-consciousness, pride, selfishness. Why I can’t see the world like how Jesus saw it.

I want to remember how far I was brought, if not by God’s love I don’t know what it is. I want to constantly remind myself I can be secure in God’s love. I want to move from glory to glory, add flavours to the bland life of others, shine in the darkness, I want to do it all for the glory of God, not mine. I want to keep my convenant with God.

I want to keep aside my selfish desires, my fears, my judgemental character, I believe I can and I will be moulded by God no matter how tough it is. I want to hang on to God, to the rock that will save me from countless tsunami or tornadoes that threaten to tear me away.

I don’t want to wake up in the morning to find emptiness engulfing me. I don’t want to feel purposeless and useless. I don’t ever want to feel that I am alone. I don’t want to go around seeking love at the wrong place when I know humans fail and they will disappoint. I don’t want to cry ever again in bitterness, fear or anger.

I want to feel safe.

And I know I’m safe in God.

Then I wouldn’t have to feel hopeless, insecure, disappointed, useless, unloved ever again.

move on people, move on

5. 2B Class chalet

Chalet K

cheery beginning

guitar solo

screwed dinner, appreciative people

our dailies

limelight

bff

everyone participating actively

♥

I’ve decided to blog about class chalet even though it was a 3 week ago event. Actually, the happenings I wanted to say had all been written down in class blog. So I shan’t repeat but ultimately I still want to dedicate this post HAHA. (i know kinda late uhhh)

Ok so, honestly I won’t say I will miss the individuals of 2B (which is so I won’t post specific dedications), but its the sense of belonging I had in this class the allow connections deeply intact.

But if you asked me, I would say 2B is a bonded class. I don’t think it was a one-person effort that clump us all together, but everyone had contributed their part to this class. So far as I know, I think we are the only class that really participate enthusiastically during lessons, who ask ALOT of questions, and really answer to the teachers’ questions. Haha and also we were one of the most obedient class in the level The cleanest class award, if not for everyone’s sweat (though we struggle to do our duties), we won’t be able to achieve it for almost every term. And each respective lessons, subject reps faithfully complete their jobs.

Conflicts, disappointments, differences may come in the way, but I believe every class will have their fair share of problems. I hope everyone will remember 2B as a fun-loving and a class that stands, instead of all the unhappiness and troubles. Not that I am trying to mask up all things that had caused relations to sour, but let it all end in a better note.

Chalet, outings, exams, good or bad times, they are all a pack of memories that make me smile when I look back. And through so much that happened, I knew all of us had grew from certain mistakes or thoughts, all of us will begin our new journey and advance on a new phrase of life. It is only the beginning.

I will not remember this class as individuals, but to me, 2B is one big family ♥

roflmaobiquackeesiaolololol

ok this shall be a short post.

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JUST KIDDING LA. If I really post that I think I will get durian thorns in my head. (peoouupurr throw at me la duh)

Ok I came here to say Happy birthday to the person who has alot ‘eeee’s in HER name. Btw I’m sorry I refer you as a female. Lalala. Ok happy birthday la teeyeeyang. Same name as my brother somemore -.- Just that my brother is yiyang instead of yeeeeeeyang. Aiya don’t think he’ll see this anyway so I shall end here. Byee.

the pretty face

aha actually I didnt dedicate the post to him ok. I wanted to post alot about today (v interesting!!! And I’ve got photos!!!) but seemed like its too late already. Tomorrow still have trg, I wouldn’t have time to post. And since today is a heavy day, I should get more rest hor. Today = relax!!! Yay thank God! And I’ve to prepare myself for camp hor.

Choi kin people!

A hard day’s work

today is a mini spring cleaning at home!

the number of race I ran (plus there's lots more)

Amount of pins I undo

I dug my old sermons and I found this

and can you believe I wrote this even before I was a believer LOL

something westf made for me before race (:

HAHA kenny wrote this

havent seen her for a long time..

I think Nigel drew this LOL

xo

My brother was miraculiously doing laundry

birthday presents

powerpuff girls temporary tattoos HAHA

more tattooos I have disney characters, pooh, even the kbuddy and maggi mee ones LOL

floppy legs, bearbear and chomp chomp....ahh yangqian ):

WTH WTH LAUGH LIKE MAD AFTER I SAW THIS LOLOL (btw yiyang is my brother, not yeeyang.)

didn't know my primary school printed these kind of bookmarks HAHA

I miss honglaoshi ):

something yanyi gave me when I was p1, wonder which school she's in now.

super hilarious la! I think I gave the other half and the black one to my exbf in pri sch LOLOL

bestfriend shirley gave it to me on my birthday during p5! And she spelt my name wrongly LOLOL

Siti Amirah, fellow trackmates in primary school! I luv her special notebook

HAHA WTH something my admirer gave me damn joke xD

and that's the box. It says, "Good luck for PSLE. From ..... (dont tell you !)"

something sweet made by my junior when I was p6 and leaving school haha

MY FIRST ANIME!

given by Neeyen who shared the same birthday as me!

thanks, its from fong

my dearest Qianyi gave it to me during p6! So sweet of her. I remembered only her in my clique gave me a present LOLOL

art I drew and paint in year1 NICE RIGHT TYTY

more chinese paintings! I'm taking pictures of the pieces cos I'm throwing them already (which I already did)

the main point is the "good attempt" written by the teacher xD

It was QUITE a productive day packing, moving, arranging, discarding items and all. But the more nerve-wrecking problem was that I don’t have a space to contain most of my stuffs, and I’ve already told my mum to get me a bookshelf. She went on telling me about the design she’ll set up so that I can have a good study environment blablabla, so much talk no action sia. I’ve been waiting for months liao lor gah its still the same la. Aiya forget it. One day, seriously I will just pack all the things that take up lots of space and donate them to the Salvation Army. I even done a research on it la so I don’t care if I were to discard any thing that I wasn’t supposed to since none of my family members wants to clear up stuffs at home, yet still complain how messy it is. So irony.

By the way, I chanced upon this site (actually while thanks to this blogger, I knew where to donate my items and every liao xD) and the way the author (its an angmoh btw!!!) portrayed his writing, its really funny! You should check it out.

And this is the site if there’s anyone who wants to donate unwanted stuffs (toys, books, etc).

so there, I’ll turn in early today as well since tomorrow’s gna be a heavy day packed with much activities.

We stayed together in our hearts

3. Lixin’s sweet sixteen
and i know this came super duper uber luper kuper fuper huper vuper cuper ruper wuper nuper muper tuper (and more) late. Sorry lah it kept slipping out of my mind until recently, actually 2 days ago. So here, its for my TALL and ALMIGHTY (self-proclaimed ok) Teo Lixin. Lots of thanks to Kenny for last minute preparations and without you it might be so much of difference hehe. (actually its just we can’t have our girls’ talk. KIDDING.)

happy birthday girl

delicious hersey cake (almost melting actually)

the awesome and pretty and cute!!!!

thats our next activity!

the classic expression on a stick(man) holding a stick

ghost hunting on birthday haha!

im the happy girl

the stick was trying to fling the popstick(!?). At that point of time, me and teo totally feel like slapping him LOL

our turn muaha

double the fun

the thing exploded (just kidding!) so we camwhore instead

CAN YOU SEE KENNY'S HAIRY LEG LOLOLOL

my fav

hearts

three awesome people (mainly me only la hor xD)

together

i rly adore this photo for some reason heehee

and she was taller for once in her life (since her bday must make her happy ma)

"I AM QUEEN" 8)

So.....................? XD

I pray that nightmares won't haunt you tonight xD

my presents for teo, so thoughtful la i know tyty^^

while she pose for her present......

"very cute ok? Don't play play" XD

happy sweet 16, old but short Lixin !

4. The three-awesome-people outing
where we hit town! (@ cityhall, starbuck, esplanade and the ferris wheel there la dno where is it LOL) And I remembered we had to share almost all our food and drinks cos three of us were broke on the exact same day HAHA.

^^

the fantastic two

and our finished (shared) frap

such a weird combi lor, i seldom take photos with him haha!

walao she totally didnt make effort to lean towards me lor bleh

desiring the tasty frappo Kenny's holding. (not kenny!)

awwwwwwwwww

there's no other amplified meaning of short xD

retards

she's so short yet she claimed the tallest building. Poor Kenny!

i love the pretty display and the people in this photo

the gummybear-eater monster rawr!

ego ttm xD

dont you think this photo's damn funny HAHA

oily faces

beautiful xmas lights

yayy end of journey

Hahahah really thank God for the two of you in my life. It has been pretty much we’ve gone through together, may it be good or bad. I know the bad moments were horrible and still it seemed rather vivid to me even though it happened so long back then. The nasty msn conversation (haha Kenny remember?), the cold war (best man Lixin LOL) and many more i don’t have the face to list them all. The good moments, they are easier to forget. But the happiness tasted lingered in our hearts. And definitely those memories were treasures given by God to us.

Maybe through changes in life we might part, yes Kenny’s no longer in the same unit and Lixin……….LOL. But I know deep in our hearts the connections stay and these friendships were the most valuable.

Still, I will not stop being thankful to God for your existence in my life.